Giving up

So, it's almost every day that I just want to give up.  There are so many things I need to do in Life.  My husband is gone, my children need attention, and my mom needs things too.  Yet, I refuse to give up bc not only do I know  striving for a healthier me, but my mom n Babes have done so much to help me through this.  I need to keep going so I can not only thank them for being there for me, but to also be an example of why it's so important to be healthy.

Even though I have my mom and Babes here, I still have felt extremely lonely.  And you know, most days I'm ok with that.  I just hope y'all's journey hasn't been as lonely...only bc most ppl don't like to be alone...if it's what you wanted, then I hope you got it. =]. During this lonely time, I've had more opportunity to look to The Lord and to have the Prophets of Old in my Life more, so I can get to know them.  It's amazing the love I have felt from Them throughout this journey.

I still feel like giving up every day.  I still hurt...a lot.  But I am stronger today than I was a month and a half ago.  I am closer to The Godhead, to The Prophets of Old, and to my family.  No rest for the weary, right?? Well, maybe someday.

This week's challenge

28 And now behold, my beloved brethren, I say unto you, do not suppose that this is all; for after ye have done all these things, if ye turn away the needy, and the naked, and visit not the sick and afflicted, and impart of your substance, if ye have, to those who stand in need—I say unto you, if ye do not any of these things, behold, your prayer is vain, and availeth you nothing, and ye are as hypocrites who do deny the faith. (Book of Mormon, Alma, Alma 34)

So, I love ALL of Alma 34, but as I read this verse, it reminded me of the challenge for this week...also hit hard bc I feel I fall into the category of hypocrite...will be working on this, not just this week, but hereafter. =]

51 Wherefore, do not spend money for that which is of no worth, nor your labor for that which cannot satisfy. Hearken diligently unto me, and remember the words which I have spoken; and come unto the Holy One of Israel, and feast upon that which perisheth not, neither can be corrupted, and let your soul delight in fatness. (Book of Mormon, 2 Nephi, 2 Nephi 9)

Take what you will from this verse, I read/heard it this morning n just loved it!!!! =]. Went to the movies last night and didn't partake of anything but mango(before 8:30pm)!!!! =]

End of First Week!!!! =]

ALOHA ALOHA HANDLES!!!! =]

And I can say ALOHA to a portion of my handles already!!!! =] YEAY!!!!  So, it's the last day of the first week! I'm not sure when I should weigh in...I mean, I kinda weighed myself this morning already, but I think I'm going to do it tomorrow morning??  Because technically, tomorrow morning would be the end of the first week and the start to the second week.

Anyway, how'd y'all do this week?!?  My BMS challenge went fine...lol...but I was a bit stressed with what was going on in Life.  So glad at least I was able to stick to my goal!!!! =]  It kind of helped, because with everything else going seemingly unaccordingly to plan, at least I knew what I definitely did and did not have to do.  Although, sometimes some foods come into question as to what list they belong.  I just did my best, and I honestly believe I have done so much better.  I've been on this path already, but with just these few tiny changes I made this past week, I've already seen a difference!!!! =]

So glad to be on the team!!!! =]  I'm ok sharing my weight and size if you all don't care.  I don't have to post them, it's just exciting sometimes.  I understand that health is more important than numbers, nonetheless, numbers are still fun to look at sometimes...or sometimes not...lol =]

Oh, so, I love that you guys post recipes!!!! =]  That's awesome!!!!  I need to be better at that.  One thing I will say...we went to the Waimea Bay Farmers' Market on Thursday and bought some of the spices there...check out www.saltywahine.com (I think that's it)...and used a little of one of them in the black beans that we had to eat last night...YUMMY!!!! =]  Now, I didn't buy the one that looked yummy for fruit (the Margarita mix one...Li Hing) b/c it contains saccharin and a couple other things I avoid.  Anyway, I don't eat much salt in other things I guess...idk...I've never believed in cutting much salt out...jijiji...but we were told only to use a little anyway. 

Question:: what do you guys think if you fry some onions and garlic in maybe 1T(or less) of a healthy oil...would you consider that deep frying??  See, I just am so conflicted w/ the "frying" part...**sigh**help**

KEEP ON KEEPIN' ON!!!!
=]
MUAH MUAH
ALOHA HANDLES!!!!!

From 5APR2014 0836

Ok, one more thing =] spiritual thought/scripture for the day...I most likely won't do this every day, but just bc this pertained so perfectly to why I'm doing this I'll share =]
4 For the fulness of mine intent is that I may persuade men to come unto the God of Abraham, and the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob, and be saved. (Book of Mormon, 1 Nephi, 1 Nephi 6)
I am striving for a healthier me so that I can do more to teach my Babes how to serve The Lord not only by word of mouth, but by example...I have learned to love my curves, and even miss my pregnant body, but I lack energy...lots of it...and I know that is not good for me...I used to be very athletic, and so I wouldn't mind having close to that body back either =] not only bc of how it looks, but more for how I will feel and the things I'll be able to accomplish =] ok...mucho love and aloha!!!! =] MUAH MUAH

Whose got two thumbs and can withstand even the temptiest of temptations? This girl!

Today was a long for my main squeeze and so we ended it with some Luibuenos.

He was supportive and didn't we didn't order dessert, but after the meal,

the owner brought us a complimentary dessert. 

Fried ice cream.

It looked so good. It was melty and crispy and chocolaty and whip creamy.

But girls, I resisted. I didn't even take a nibble,

although I did claim a slice of that strawberry for my own.

I'm sharing it so that you can congratulate me on my fortitude in the midst of adversity.

I didn't give in. Hear me ROAR! 

Aloha to our Handles

One thing I've been thinking about lately is the capacity love has to make change. I'm a big believer in the fact that if we want to see positive changes to any aspect of our lives, we need to apply love. This includes our bodies and the way we perceive them. Analiese mentioned the other day that she loves her curves and I was so happy to read that. I'm still on that journey but have come a long ways and am certainly grateful for this most amazing gift.

That's what I appreciate about this challenge. It's seeking to address the whole person. And I'm a believer that if I feel more love for my body, mind and spirit, I'll have a greater desire to each component in the best possible way.

I'm thrilled to share that my back has healed much in the last week. I went on a long walk last night and came home feeling fantastic. I went on another this morning with Clementine and have a hankering to go on another tonight if I can swing it.

On another note, I made a yummy breakfast this morning. Clementine and I ate eggs with zucchini, onions and loads of spinach. I mixed a little pesto into the scrambled egg mixture and it made them taste divine. I crumbled a little feta cheese on top but later realized that it wasn't necessary. The eggs were good enough to stand on their own. We ate it with a side of turkey bacon. Delish!

And now I'm off to make lunch, cucumber sandwiches a la Lala's suggestion.